Just under the wire..

 

LIFE has not been great! My art on iPad has gone to the dark side!

I have felt a sense of dread for 6 months and yesterday all day it was worse. I knew why, and sat with iPad in lap and when I ended up, this was it.

As I contemplated it, I thought no wonder famous artists show dark portraits, or cut off their own ears. 

Who knows how a crisis in your life can effect the way you feel..

Last night was NOT good.

Not a lot of sleep for me!

I received texts and emails, a gift card to Amazon, starting at 5 am, I replied with a sour comment.

I cried while walking Beau and saw a couple of people stare at the old crone with the Big Dog, they had no idea how I was feeling.

I wanted to do a post, I could not think of anything worth saying..

You see, Today I turned "81"

Every Sept 5, I do a post that says Happy Whatever # of years it is, to me.

I made the decision to just forget it this year.

Late afternoon, I read the old ones and every single one of them had some disaster that happened on my birthday, and I told it with humor.

I thought I can't see what if funny about my breakfast this morning, a  pancake with maple syrup, flipping off the counter onto my lap and flipping from their to the carpet with my entire breakfast on the sticky carpet.

I have this moment decided to do a post.

I took a photo of myself, because I always do and Whoa BOY

YIKES.... I am keeping it small, do not enlarge. please.

I thought, OK Sandra, Suck it up Buttercup! There are millions of people in the same frying pan as you are and my blog friends are ready to swamp me with greetings.

Give it a try and smile, not fake smile

Yes! I did stay in my gown and slippers All Day!

I finally found a real smile, because I looked so silly doing all this and 

then I received this

A CARD from my Medicare HMO, I burst into laughter and thought, you gotta show this to your friends. I have been with them since I was 65. 

I gave myself a giggle and came here to say thank you for all the greetings and cards and gifts and love and for hanging in there while I Suck It Up Buttercup and wait for 82.