Showing posts with label Choleric. Show all posts
Showing posts with label Choleric. Show all posts

Saturday, March 16, 2019

THIS is ME, As I AM.

My test results
My apologies for this long post... I am putting this here as a letter to myself, to read when I feel so different.

Have you ever been reading a fictional story and read parts that gave you instant insight into something you had pondered in the past? I do that a lot.

This past week I found ME described in one paragraph.. I have always been 'different' and never could explain how or why. By different I mean, not the average female. More like a male than a female.


"Jo had never been good with kids and make believe games, even when she was a young girl.
Jo's parents, both scientists, often said her double dose of analytical genes had made her that way.
they used to joke about how she'd come out of the womb, with an intent frown on her face, as if she were formulating hypotheses about where she was and who all the people in the delivery room were."
             
         Quote from the book,  Where the forest meets the stars by Glendy Vanderah

When I read this quote, I began to THINK about ME.... the reason I see the world through different eyes. I am Analytic, Logical and rational to the nth degree... Like the woman in the book, I came out of the womb asking who are you and why are you here...

I asked the who, why, what, when, I see the If I do this, This will happen or not happen. I reason my way through every decision and thought. I am also a person who must be in control. Also am disposed to take action and analyze, analyze to see what action must be taken.

most of my fears are because they are Out Of My Control....

I can't stand to be told what to do, or not to do. because my logic tells me what it is I should do and that is what I am going to do....

I think with my personality and being born to a father much like me, the fact he raised me by trying to control me my whole life, it enhanced what I was born with.

The UPSHOT of this is I went investigoogling and found this SITE  I read and read and clicked and clicked, found there are Four Temperaments: Sanguine, Phlegmatic, Choleric, and Melancholic .
I took a test, and found I am Choleric by 60 percent and Melancholic 40 percent.

This has answered so many questions for me... I was either born this way or nurtured this way, but whichever it is, I am what I am.... I AM

ESTJ....it fits me like a glove. These snips are from Phschologia.co and the links are here to their sight. I don't trust everything I read, but this is ME and now I know who I am .

I have often said I am more like a male than a female. This site said only 12 % of people have this personality type and the vast majority are male.