Just under the wire..

 

LIFE has not been great! My art on iPad has gone to the dark side!

I have felt a sense of dread for 6 months and yesterday all day it was worse. I knew why, and sat with iPad in lap and when I ended up, this was it.

As I contemplated it, I thought no wonder famous artists show dark portraits, or cut off their own ears. 

Who knows how a crisis in your life can effect the way you feel..

Last night was NOT good.

Not a lot of sleep for me!

I received texts and emails, a gift card to Amazon, starting at 5 am, I replied with a sour comment.

I cried while walking Beau and saw a couple of people stare at the old crone with the Big Dog, they had no idea how I was feeling.

I wanted to do a post, I could not think of anything worth saying..

You see, Today I turned "81"

Every Sept 5, I do a post that says Happy Whatever # of years it is, to me.

I made the decision to just forget it this year.

Late afternoon, I read the old ones and every single one of them had some disaster that happened on my birthday, and I told it with humor.

I thought I can't see what if funny about my breakfast this morning, a  pancake with maple syrup, flipping off the counter onto my lap and flipping from their to the carpet with my entire breakfast on the sticky carpet.

I have this moment decided to do a post.

I took a photo of myself, because I always do and Whoa BOY

YIKES.... I am keeping it small, do not enlarge. please.

I thought, OK Sandra, Suck it up Buttercup! There are millions of people in the same frying pan as you are and my blog friends are ready to swamp me with greetings.

Give it a try and smile, not fake smile

Yes! I did stay in my gown and slippers All Day!

I finally found a real smile, because I looked so silly doing all this and 

then I received this

A CARD from my Medicare HMO, I burst into laughter and thought, you gotta show this to your friends. I have been with them since I was 65. 

I gave myself a giggle and came here to say thank you for all the greetings and cards and gifts and love and for hanging in there while I Suck It Up Buttercup and wait for 82.

Sandra @80yearsoldtoday

 

1944                                                   1946

 1960   1990

                                       

2006

2020   2024

                                              

How did I get from 1944 to now so quickly? 

I used to scramble each morning, with 2 boys and a part time job, I could clean and dust and do laundry and have it all done in one morning, in time to get them down for a nap and watch a soap opera, of which I can no longer remember the name.

Somewhere in the years I gained a 80 pounds from 1985 to 2006 and lost 70 of those in 2017.

These days, I have to pick a chore and do one each day and on a good day 2 per day.

 I also use a fake, feather fiber duster because its quicker and easier.

I can no longer reach the top shelf in the kitchen, or reach the light bulbs in the bathroom or on the fans without taking my life in my hands and standing on something to make me taller. 

the why is somewhere along the way I went from 5'6 to 5'4 and still shrinking.

Its a new day, its a new song, it a new ME

 

Sandra @ 80 years old today, and as of now you can't even sing, and "many more" at the end of my birthday song. 

I am including the first creation because I disliked it and did the one above. 

But for posterity sake, before deleting I chose to show it