Friday, September 5, 2025

Just under the wire..

 

LIFE has not been great! My art on iPad has gone to the dark side!

I have felt a sense of dread for 6 months and yesterday all day it was worse. I knew why, and sat with iPad in lap and when I ended up, this was it.


As I contemplated it, I thought no wonder famous artists show dark portraits, or cut off their own ears. 
Who knows how a crisis in your life can effect the way you feel..
Last night was NOT good.
Not a lot of sleep for me!
I received texts and emails, a gift card to Amazon, starting at 5 am, I replied with a sour comment.
I cried while walking Beau and saw a couple of people stare at the old crone with the Big Dog, they had no idea how I was feeling.
I wanted to do a post, I could not think of anything worth saying..
You see, Today I turned "81"
Every Sept 5, I do a post that says Happy Whatever # of years it is, to me.
I made the decision to just forget it this year.
Late afternoon, I read the old ones and every single one of them had some disaster that happened on my birthday, and I told it with humor.
I thought I can't see what if funny about my breakfast this morning, a  pancake with maple syrup, flipping off the counter onto my lap and flipping from their to the carpet with my entire breakfast on the sticky carpet.
I have this moment decided to do a post.
I took a photo of myself, because I always do and Whoa BOY
YIKES.... I am keeping it small, do not enlarge. please.
I thought, OK Sandra, Suck it up Buttercup! There are millions of people in the same frying pan as you are and my blog friends are ready to swamp me with greetings.
Give it a try and smile, not fake smile

Yes! I did stay in my gown and slippers All Day!


I finally found a real smile, because I looked so silly doing all this and 
then I received this

A CARD from my Medicare HMO, I burst into laughter and thought, you gotta show this to your friends. I have been with them since I was 65. 
I gave myself a giggle and came here to say thank you for all the greetings and cards and gifts and love and for hanging in there while I Suck It Up Buttercup and wait for 82.








7 comments:

~Lavender Dreamer~ said...

Happy Birthday dear friend! I know it is not possible to be cheerful when you are going through such a hard time. I hope and pray things will improve in the year ahead. Sending you LOTS of sweet birthday hugs. We love you and want that smile to come back on it's own! Hugs, Diane

Chatty Crone said...

I knew it was your birthday and sent you an email and wrote a post on Facebook. I agree - how can you be cheerful when so much is going on?
I am so sorry you are struggling so much. I am still praying.

Ginny Hartzler said...

I wish you a HAPPY Birthday, but it seems like life had other plans. I thought you may have sunken eyes and a skeletal face, considering all you have been through. But you look better than ever!!! I don't know how you do it. And every year, comfort beats fashion every time. We do not do care giving wearing heels and pearls. I love your dark side creations!!!

Walter & Angel Millie said...

Happy Birthday, Sandra. I wish I were there to give you a hug and do something that could help you right now. Just know there are many of us out here that care about you and are thinking about you often. I love your sweet portraits and that you were able to give us a smile despite your pain.

Yamini MacLean said...

Hari Om
Bless you for grasping that nettle! You look so pretty in pink... Sending loads of Love via the ethernet. YAM xx

Mevely317 said...

Birthday blessings to the Lady in Mauve! YIKES!!! on that pancake-y syrup mishap. Did Beau appreciate the sweet treat, at least?
Your smiles still light up my life.

Sandee said...

♪♫Happy Birthday to you,♪♫
♪♫Happy Birthday to you,♪♫
♪♫Happy Birthday Dear Sandra,♪♫
♪♫Happy Birthday to you.♪♫

Today is hubbies birthday too. It's a double celebration.

Have a fabulous day and weekend. A hug to you and scritches to Beau. ♥