Dementia, The Beginning -Anxiety and Fear

 

 365 Promises and Prayers for dealing with Anxiety and Fear ©️Smith Freeman Publishing.

There is no author name on the book, no other info other than above.

No one calls this a self help book, no one is taking credit for the book.

I think I found this Book in July of 2024. Leaving the Automotive Department in Wal-mart, which is the corner of Wal-Mart I rarely shop in, I came face to face with a rack of books, right in the middle of the aisle, blocking it in fact I saw

a total of around 40 books six rows of 10 each, in fact a wall of the same titles,

 all Shouting, 

Anxiety - Fear, 

365 Promises and Prayer

I bought it, $12.99

I glanced through it and never touched it again, until 4 months later, until the week after Dec 31, 2024.

(2024 rivaled 2020 in stress, fear, anxiety and the truth is, my anxiety and fears led me to a 3 hour test for dementia at a psychiatrist office. I am fine.

The beginning of our journey through dementia started when in 2020, the YMCA closed down for COVID, the rest of that year, I started to notice changes in my husband Bob. Personality changes, anger, not sleeping well. 

The park that he flew his planes in daily was closed for a year as was the YMCA that allowed him to swim laps 5 days a week. When the Y reopened, in 2021 he went back to swimming, but dropped to 3 days a week, constantly complaining because I would not go with him. He could no longer fly his planes at Bray Park because they spent 2 million dollars in fencing everything in the 88 acres. Planes can't fly there now. 

I attributed the changes in him to these two things that he loved so much.

He started to change in 2021 and  I now know he was in the slow descent into dementia.

Because of his age, health issues came one behind another, 5 Melanoma surgeries, and in 2017 carotid  surgery due to both carotid blocked, one 100 % the other 75 which caused  a TIA that made his face droop on one side and changed his speech. Within 6 months he was back to new normal

The point of all this is this was a slow descent to where we are now.

New Years Eve 2024 Our precious Beau was so sick, I was afraid we were going to lose him. We spent New Years Eve in Animal ER. That post is HERE

My stress levels have been building and 2024/2025 have been the worse

 

My STRESS started in 2020, not just the covid stress but IBS came to live with me. I had to give up the pool at the Y, and when it shut down in March of 2020, I never went back.

Stress feeds on stress. I went from STRESS to Maximum Stress when husband Bob woke up and could not walk, on March 26th and EMT came and took him to hospital.

And here we are over 6 months later, 2 hospital visits, 3 weeks in a rehab and 8 weeks in hospital bed in the living room. Bob with hallucinations, and sun-downers and much more.

Anger at my life and all this became harder and harder to handle. Keeping my anger in caused me to sometimes explode and say things I should not. 

I had been reading and marking this book since the first day of 2025, 6 months ago I hug a rack on the wall, you can guess which room and since that day I have started to change more and more..  I intend to do short blurbs here and there to share with you some of the promises and prayers that have helped me through these 6 months. This is a long post, but I want this one to say, that God put this book in my hands long before I needed it.. Each time I pick it up it speaks to what is happening on that day.

I do solemnly promise to KEEP The Shares SHORT